Day 19

Spent time on Day 19 once again being challenged by having people speak into my life regarding leadership, integrity, and priorities.  Then focusing on those things during prayer is a very interesting conversation with Jesus.  I find myself wrestling with insecurities, fears, ideas, dreams, and being reminded to trust God.  God and I talk alot about trust in prayer.  I verbalize my trust in every prayer, every day.  I don't know if I am hoping I will continue to believe it more or if I am fearful that I will forget to do that very thing. 

As  a leader I pray for my motive often.  I want to make sure my motive is pure and right.  I also pray for those I lead.  What a humble privilege and a humble opportunity.  It really is.  Sometimes that can be overwhelming, sometimes it can be so exciting.  To live out the call of God on your life is an amazing journey that requires me to live in His grace and love. 

I also pray often for the wisdom of Solomon.  I am one who ponders things.  I don't quickly respond to things that are important or in need of a decision.  I like to pray and think and think and pray.  But I ask God to give me wisdom beyond myself.  Wisdom that comes from not only me stretching myself in learning, but also by the power of the Holy Spirit.  I have experienced that help from the Holy Spirit, but will daily ask for God to grant me more wisdom. 

I also found myself today praying that I would keep finding my identity in Christ.  Though there are many other things pulling at my identity, I want everything to filter through Christ, not have Him just be a part of my life.  I want Him to be my life.  So as I pray about this crucial part of my identity, I really try to listen and listen with an open heart and mind.

Prayer Update:  Ashlyn is home and doing great.  The test results came back from the spinal tap as well.  No cancer, no signs of anything on the spine.  Praise God!  That is awesome.

Keith